Untitled

It's been a long time since I've written here and it may seem as though I've said all there is to say, but unfortunately this is not the case. It's scary to see how fast time flies, in fact it was only 7 years ago that I was just starting high-school and was a naive little boy desperately trying to fit into a clique. To say the least I'm still naive but in many respects I've grown and learned from many experiences, many of which I would love to experience again. The reason this piece is untitled is the fact that I no longer have a subject to talk about. Previous posts were written spitefully about love and heartbreak; confusion and mind games but now that my eyes have been open to the world such trivial things don't bother me anymore. Don't get me wrong I would still LOVE to understand the nature that is "women" and their behaviors, but these kind of things all play out sooner or later. The longer you play field the more experience and knowledge you will receive, the only problem is that this information cannot be passed on. Regrettably each women is different and unique in their own way which is exciting and at the same time frustrating; only patience and vigilance can ease the torture. The only thing I wish to tell you to conclude this post is that: Pain is only temporary, and what doesn't kill you will (technically) make you stronger.

Much Love

Schmoobs

Sunshine and Roses

Falling for your best friend is dangerous, one false move and your heart is torn right through your chest with no remorse and thought. Too many times has this happened to poor fellows, and although we have been rejected by the one we feel most close to it isn't the same as "just another rejection". To me it seems these rejections linger, it makes you think about the "whys?" and "what ifs". Were it so easy to give up I would not be writing about this now. Based on personal experience this phenomenon is like a drug addiction, to say the least it is much harder to give up this girl as opposed to any other girl. It is like you are driven to her and yet you dare not to consider to try again lest you get rejected again. She is always on your mind, when you see them your day immediately seems blissful and all other thoughts just melt away. A day without her would almost seem like the end of the world. And although at the time you seem content with your secrecy you dread the day she is out of your life for good, taken away by another person who has what you could not offer. Every word she speaks is like a siren's song and yet when she speaks of others your heart is wrenched open and the old wound is torn apart. You keep these feelings to yourself this time, fearing and paranoid that were she to find out the close bond you have would break, and yet, you want to go further. Anyone else that shows interest is like a taboo, and even glancing at someone else's gaze is like adultery. I have no insight as to solving this dilemma, what I can offer is personal experience. There are some however, who persist and succeed, why? I cannot answer that. What I can say is that this can be overcome with the right mindset, what used to be an addiction is no longer and you can be content with what you have. Like I've said before, there are lots of fish in the sea. And if she can't see you for what you can offer, she doesn't deserve you. My writing is a little rusty from the time off but I hope I've brought some insight.

Sincerely

Schmoobs

Failure

You never know when it's going to hit you, you never know when it will strike. It seems that nowadays you cannot avoid failure, regardless of who you are. Take for example a test you've studied ridiculously for, one that you cannot possibly fail at, and yet karma has a way of coming at you for being so proud. Not only is this based on personal experience but I believe others are bottled in these situations as well. Nevertheless we continue on, disregarding our failures and carving a path ahead to the future not learning a thing from our past mistakes. It seems to be a reoccurring theme now, as you try your hardest and fail you move on and learn nothing from those failures, but when you fail yet again you question why? I have no words of wisdom for this for I too have had my share of failures, it is something that is just unavoidable, unpredictable. Have you ever worked hard to the point where you sweat blood and have no doubt in your mind that you will succeed, only to have the world crush you for your insolence and fail you? I do believe everyone has experienced this once, and what do you do when that happens? Some get up and try again and some just lie there, begging for it to stop. What I want to drive at right now is this, learn from failures, learn from mistakes do not overcompensate your own ability because there is a sure likelihood that your abilities are exaggerated. Broken dreams, hearts and shattered hopes are side effects, it is like death it unnoticed until it approaches you and consumes you. Abilities are not enough, nor is hard work because the world is cruel and will exploit all weakness and failures. It is hard to get up sometimes, and yet most of us still do but presently I wish to just lie there and let my failures consume me, but I guess that is a tad emotional. Learn from mistakes, don't disregard them.

Sincerely

Schmoobs

Loneliness

When your feelings are in disarray and every breath you take seems to hurt, you sometimes wonder what's going on. You're lost and you have strayed from the path, nothing is as it should the world around you is confusing. It's thoughts like these that could really drive someone mad, such depressing thoughts even if they are from the heart are of no benefit to yourself or others. It may be hard but the more you think about things like this the worse you'll feel, also the whole debate whether to bottle up feelings or not is plain rubbish, bottling up feelings is the worse thing you could possibly do. What harm will come if you told a very good friend, you may worry about betrayal but if you cannot even trust your friends who can you trust. Keeping feelings in especially negative feelings harm you and those around you, it makes people nervous to be around you it makes them scared to ask what's wrong and most of all they find situations with you awkward. So unintentionally you are driving away your friends or at least creating a certain gap between them. Why would people bottle up feelings though, everyone tells you that it's bad for you and yet people still do it. It's because of insecurity, the fact they are afraid people will mock them for feeling that way, and yet their feelings are justified because not everyone understands but yet there has to be some trust people can put between friends can't they? Face it everyone goes through these stages, some just cope with it differently but bottling it up is no answer regardless, just take the plunge and tell someone because no one wants to experience another Columbine. No one is ever alone, don't get into that kind of mindset because it will slowly eat you away until you are nothing more, know that everyone experiences it once in awhile but those who are alright chose to act against it. Everyone should do the same. Nobody likes being alone and yet nobody is ever really alone, rather it is only how we perceive and interpret ideas that cause us to believe we are alone. You are not.

Sincerely

Schmoobs

P.S: Loneliness is but an adjective, a word made real by those who live by it and can't break free of it's entanglement. But strength alone can not set you free rather you must set your mind free in order to see light even in the darkest of caves.

Haters

Hate all you want I did not make you read my posts, you choose to waste your time reading it under your own influence. Liking what I write is a different story. Quoting anonymous "can you make a single post without making silly assumptions?" the answer is simple Yes I can, I just choose not to where is the fun in that? Honestly I love comments whether they be constructive or a childish insult towards me, because that means there are two considerations. Either they agree with my post or they disagree and simply cannot find strong enough words to express themselves, so they resort to petty insults. (Refer to the comments in Religion) Now for an assumption, there must be some reason for people to post negatively on my blog. It must mean that my posts simply get to them, there is no other motive that I can think of for them to respond in such a way. Either they cannot accept the fact that I am right or they have another opinion, sadly in my case it is usually the former. Just remember that the reader chooses what to read, when you pick up a book and you dislike it do you continue to read it? Just like the book, if you do not enjoy my writing just stop reading it. Now do not let this post dissuade you readers from posting, in fact I welcome it as long as it is constructive in any sort negative or positive. Just bear in mind that while being the hater may be fun, but no one likes a hater. You may feel that you are witty, but you are not. If you are then congratulations, you have my sincerest respect

Sincerely

Schmoobs

P.S: Don't feed your insecurities

Lectures

If you have ever sat through a 3 hour lecture in University you would understand what I mean. A 3 hour lecture is just ridiculous, after the first hour your attention towards the professor has diminished continuing for another hour is just a waste of time. By the end of the 3 hours you would have learned nothing and you would be tired. Information would not have been encoded properly and you would not remember anything past the first hour. So why do Professors insist on talking for 3 hours with 10 min breaks between intervals, instead of 2 hours, or better yet an hour. I expect the professors to be tired from talking so much, talking is perhaps more energy consuming than sitting in a cramped chair for 3 hours. In my opinion professors who have lectures over 2 hours simply have nothing better to do with their time then to talk to students, they are those who can not think of any other place they would rather be than in the school. They have no place to be afterward when the classes end, they are the loners. Why is it that whenever hour classes end the professor always have places to go to? Think about it hour classes are rarely in the evening like from 11-12pm whereas the 3 hour lectures are always the latest time possible, around 6-9pm. Those professors just live a boring existence they are the ones with a weird accent and always stutter, unsure if what they are about to say. I may be a bit harsh here but face it, no one likes sitting in a 3 hour lecture in cramped seats listening to a man drone on and on about a picture and how it relates to human perception. We get tired and we stop listening, not only is it a waste of your time but it also wastes our time. Time we could be using to do something else. I don't despise those kind of professors and I have no evidence to support my claims against them, but it just seems like the logical assumption, why else would they stay so late. I mean they leave right after the evening class and they do not teach in the morning. No one should have to suffer through a 3 hour or longer lecture, in my opinion it just is not practical.

Sincerely

Schmoobs

Drinking

To young adults such as myself the only entertaining part of a wedding is the open bar. Never have I had so much free alcohol, and as it may be a temporary relief of happiness the outcome of tomorrows hangover would say otherwise. I have enjoyed the occasional drink or two and have always enjoyed the buzzed feeling, but never have I been fully hammered where my conscious self is unaware. I believe drinking is something you can do with friends and family, and I have no problems with it, but my only issue are those who choose to use alcohol as a temporary relief. There are those who seem to think that drowning in alcohol will make them feel better, and that may be so for the present but there are dire consequences in the future. I may have no right to lecture those who partake in this sort of action but think about it, does making yourself drunk and close to passing out really going to solve your problems? Everyone says confidence is key to success, have you ever considered taking the problems head on instead of destroying yourself slowly with a toxin. It's time to grow up and deal with the situations like an adult, this also applies to those who think smoking and drugs are a healthy alternative. I'm surprised by how many people think "Drinking is going to make all my problems go away, durrr" and then realize a couple years later they have alcohol poisoning or liver cancer. Then there are those who do it simply for attenion and sympathy, which is just pathetic. So please don't drown yourself in alcohol, there are much healthier alternatives that does not destroy your body slowly like talking to a friend about it, or counseling. Just learn to handle things like an adult, you have to remember you are not alone, you have friends who care and would probably be willing to carry your burden with you, afterall what are friends for?

Sincerely

Schmoobs