Falling for your best friend is dangerous, one false move and your heart is torn right through your chest with no remorse and thought. Too many times has this happened to poor fellows, and although we have been rejected by the one we feel most close to it isn't the same as "just another rejection". To me it seems these rejections linger, it makes you think about the "whys?" and "what ifs". Were it so easy to give up I would not be writing about this now. Based on personal experience this phenomenon is like a drug addiction, to say the least it is much harder to give up this girl as opposed to any other girl. It is like you are driven to her and yet you dare not to consider to try again lest you get rejected again. She is always on your mind, when you see them your day immediately seems blissful and all other thoughts just melt away. A day without her would almost seem like the end of the world. And although at the time you seem content with your secrecy you dread the day she is out of your life for good, taken away by another person who has what you could not offer. Every word she speaks is like a siren's song and yet when she speaks of others your heart is wrenched open and the old wound is torn apart. You keep these feelings to yourself this time, fearing and paranoid that were she to find out the close bond you have would break, and yet, you want to go further. Anyone else that shows interest is like a taboo, and even glancing at someone else's gaze is like adultery. I have no insight as to solving this dilemma, what I can offer is personal experience. There are some however, who persist and succeed, why? I cannot answer that. What I can say is that this can be overcome with the right mindset, what used to be an addiction is no longer and you can be content with what you have. Like I've said before, there are lots of fish in the sea. And if she can't see you for what you can offer, she doesn't deserve you. My writing is a little rusty from the time off but I hope I've brought some insight.
Sincerely
Schmoobs
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That hit the spot. Why do girls have to be so confusing sigh. holding hands, cuddling, sleeping over for the night in the same bed! iunno maybe it's just me but I would think that these actions would really mess with a guys head. Eh, sometimes we just have to muster up the courage and make a move. Even if it goes against all logical reasoning, these kinds of risk just have to made so ones heart is not sitting at the edge of cliff for eternity.
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